I woke up this morning expecting a relaxing morning in bed. Those plans changed when I turned on my phone and the algorithms showed me a new video uploaded on youtube while I was sleeping. “Vegas’ Dark Side – The Stories of Ex-Prostitutes” by Peter Santenello.
Researching the topics I write about means the algorithms keep working after I’ve submitted the article and what I find out in the following weeks be it old or new content is more than enough to write many more articles.
This morning was one of those occasions having recently covered part of Annie Lobert’s story in my article “What is a soul worth” based on the Exodus Cry documentary “Nefarious Merchant of souls”. She works so hard trying to help other girls and so I was curious about this new video.
There were two distinct points when I was watching Peter’s video where I felt there were song lyrics in what she was sharing. I’ll leave the mystery of where those two points were up to you to discover. If you think you work it out let me know the time stamp in the comments below. Part of my brain says wait till these lyrics are put to music and recorded to share but my heart says if they can help save just one life share them tonight. So I’m sharing them with you now, as raw and as fresh as they are in the hope that my small effort can help fight this global issue.
Annie’s song
(Verse 1)
In a world of empty gazes, my heart did ache,
Aching for love, a chance to break free from the fake.
Men came and went, leaving me feeling hollow,
Never truly seeing me, only a facade they’d follow.
But deep down inside, a flame burned bright,
Yearning for acceptance, to be seen in the light.
(Chorus)
Men did not love me, but I longed to be adored,
Yearning for connection, craving something more.
They missed the real person that dwelled within,
Aching to be cherished, to let my true self begin.
(Verse 2)
I was not just a call girl, but a soul in search,
Seeking love’s embrace, craving someone’s perch.
I wanted to be valued for the person that I am,
To have my worth acknowledged, not seen as a sham.
But then I heard a voice, a whisper in the night,
Calling my true name, igniting a guiding light.
(Chorus)
Men did not love me, but I longed to be adored,
Yearning for connection, craving something more.
They missed the real person that dwelled within,
Aching to be cherished, to let my true self begin.
(Bridge)
In that moment of revelation, destiny’s sweet kiss,
I discovered my purpose, my soul’s true bliss.
No longer confined by others’ narrow sight,
I embraced my journey, ready to take flight.
No more seeking validation from those who couldn’t see,
I would accept my creators love setting my soul free.
(Chorus)
Men did not love me, but I longed to be adored,
Yearning for connection, craving something more.
They missed the real person that dwelled within,
Aching to be cherished, to let my true self begin.
(Outro)
So here I stand, empowered and strong,
Knowing my true worth, where I truly belong.
No longer defined by others’ fleeting desire,
I found my true love, set my soul on fire.
For I am more than what they failed to perceive,
And now, I walk my path, ready to believe.
©2023 Neville Hiatt
I originally thought there would be one song from two different points in the video but as I started to write I knew it would be two separate songs both inspired by Annie’s story. Oz Fox (who is Annie’s musician husband) if you are reading this you are welcome to record these songs for her.
Illusions of nirvana
(Verse 1)
I remember chasing the feeling of home,
Longing for safety and love to call my own.
I thought wealth and stability would fill the void,
That finding my family would finally bring joy.
But the golden carrot kept slipping away,
Illusions of nirvana leading me astray.
(Chorus)
But then I found solace in God’s tender embrace,
In His empty holes, I discovered my place.
Within His wounded hands, I found what I sought,
The fulfillment I yearned for, the love I thought I’d lost.
(Verse 2)
I was angry at God, questioning His existence,
Blaming Him for my pain and relentless persistence.
But in those empty holes, I found the truth,
That His love was the answer to my endless pursuit.
Everything I searched for was right there all along,
In the scars on His hands was the home where I belonged.
(Bridge)
No longer chasing mirages, I’m finally free,
Embracing the love that was always meant to be.
No more seeking approval from worldly desires,
For in God’s embrace, my heart truly aspires.
(Chorus)
But then I found solace in God’s tender embrace,
In His empty holes, I discovered my place.
Within His wounded hands, I found what I sought,
The fulfillment I yearned for, the love I thought I’d lost.
(Outro)
So let me share this truth with those who are lost,
In the pursuit of happiness, at any cost.
The love you seek is found in the Divine,
In the embrace of God, true peace you’ll find.
No longer chasing empty dreams, no more to roam,
In God’s arms, you’ll find the feeling of home.
©2023 Neville Hiatt
The other songs I’ve been writing this year (which I don’t think I’ve mentioned before so might come as a surprise), you’ll have to wait to read/hear. You can’t tackle every issue that is happening in your community. There are so many, but which one drives you to tears, and what can you do to help?